Thursday, December 20, 2007
Thursday, November 15, 2007
It was early in the morning, when my alarm rang…lazy to even open my eyes I forced myself out of the bed…still yawning I put on my shoes and set on the road…every step hoping the next one will make me up completely.
Used to the routine I turned on my FM…The Host screamed “goooooooooood morniiiiiiiiiiing
Forcing my steps as I walked my way…suddenly something struck me…"long hair”…bouncing till her knees. WOW!!! My eyes popped out….and heart skipped a beat! Trust me I have never before felt anything like this….this must be an indication from heaven…SOUL MATE...no more laziness... my legs picked up on their own…"forget jogging” it said "run”!! I ran just for a glance of my new found “Soul Mate”! Oooppss she is pretty fast…she took off I don’t know in which direction. Disappointed I returned. Man she did make me run a lot…!!
Following morning, for a change I waited for the alarm to ring…my parents were taken aback as I screamed “byee” and took off…of course I was jogging. Yesss!! There she was at a distance….I told myself “I don’t care u jog or run….fetch her…come on”!! trust me she dint give me a chance to jog….I had to run….well I reached her….my heart was pounding…dunno if it was coz of running or the first look at my soul mate!! I very carefully over took her…I thought “now what? Okkk shoe lace…tighten them…” I bent down and turned back…ok this is it…. “WWWOOOWWW…no no i don't mean she is gorgeous…she has a mustache…wait a minute…its guy…man you made me run!!!! Not once but 2 days” I chuckled and continued to jog and said “Soul Mate” hehehe…!
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
It was a dark…pitch dark…and whatever I thought was the world, and true to the best of my knowledge…I imagined and created the world from I what I heard….sometimes loud and scary…some times soft and lulling and sometimes really melodious….sometimes far off, and sometimes really really close.
Finally the day came, when I could open my tiny eyes and look at all that I dreamt of…it was not dream any more…very much true and solid…there she holds me for the first time in her arms…but wait a min she doesn’t look happy…she is crying..!! But why??? Ok I never dreamt of this…wanting to be in her lap…but I am resting next to her totally unattended!! Hmmm I am gonna complain about this to Dad.
Even as she cried and hastened her steps away the only thing I knew was, she is not doing any justice. Whatever the reason be, I am not to be punished. Unknown alien world and lie there helpless at the mercy of passer by!
I stared at the one watching me from high above, and questioned, why? Why? Why? I had much more to ask but no words!! I only said “take me God, I feel rejected. I can’t take any more pain!! I am lonely, take me back into your loving bosom…take me now…the world is cruel…I have no trust now….I have no one now…I need love”.
Today I write this article with only one thing in my head “I really dint deserve to be ditched so badly” Don’t do this…don’t let your beloved down…it dries one completely! All dreams in vain!! One thing I learnt was not to dream, coz they are after all dream and never come true.
Yes of course I also have say that I fell into the dark because of a Mother and raised because of a mother again. But my perception of love has changed. The day I was in her womb everything was true…it took just a day to change the definition. After all this is life is what I hear…is this actually what you call life?